When I'm bored, All I do is Photoshop-ing.

extracted from ary's blog:

"If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they don't, they never were"

learning in process.

Happy Birthday Seige. I cant believe i couldnt find any decent pic of urs. haha.

Dear Goodbye

Staring out, depressed about
What words I have to plead
So torn apart

Shattered by impressions of
Confessions in defeat
My broken heart

Crying, desperate, fighting
Questions scared to let go

We used to be so beautiful
But the days go by and
Things get better

I'm weary from the war
I'm losing half my soul
But the days go by and

Past the point of reasons
I just want you to believe
That it's not your fault

Cry your eyes to sleep
It's like a thousand rainy nights
Oh, drowning lows

Photographs, the close up, what we had
Come undone

Where did it all go wrong?
The days go by and
Things get better

You hardened like a stone
To face the world alone
But the days go by and
Things get better

Exhausted of apologies
In search of something comforting
But the days go by and
Things get better

Brought out the best and worst in me
You gave your all unselfishly
But the days go by and

Oh, I could never replace
All the tenderest moments
They will always live right here
Inside me

My love will forever hold a place
For you
That's why I'm so confused, yeah

we used to be so beautiful
But the days go by and
Things get better

I'm losing half my soul
To face the world alone
But the days go by and
Things get better

We're not the type to just give up
But I know that it's what's best for us
The days go by and
Things get better

We'll pass some crossing roads
Surviving on our own
But the days go by and...

This is my fate. fuck

why do this to me?

dissapointed. i lost hope. i lost you.

bebot bitch finally turned 18. happybday

the devil's unleashed.

It can happen. Too much sad songs alters the mind.

This is crucial. My fcuking mp4 just fcuking hanged! fcuk fcuk fcuk. Its not even past a month since i bought it. What's more crucial is the fcuking receipt which i couldnt find ! argh. this better not be. My only hope is on the membership card that i was given upon purchase. no no no !!

I fcuking woke up early in the morning to study on my last test today. Then after test i had to rushed to Raffles Place to do some production crew show at Victoria Theatre. Its a charity show yet again about people with Down Syndrome. And its actually the same thing i did for a dance performance during the fasting month.

Ended around 10 and the whole bunch of us went to Boat Quay to chill out at Zahara. Sheesh. Eat. Drink. Smoke.


Andrea


lovebirds



jodie

nadia

at last.

Eu quero apenas a gastei alguma hora com você. Mas seu assim duro encontrar-se com mesmo acima por 5 minutos. Eu não sei o que é goin a acontecer. Eu quero ser amei. Você é justo busy demasiado. busy demasiado para mim. demasiado ocupado. eu falto-o tanto que im imune aos sentimentos. Eu não quero dizer-lhe que que eu não sou feliz porque eu me conheço estão sendo unfair. eu não sei. eu pude rather ser normal outra vez.

Your Birthdate: June 7

Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words. Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take. You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it! Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

haha. did this for fun.

i por muito tempo para sua presença.

Today, is Friday 16th 2007.

Today its not a good day. I felt it.

String of bad lucks.
1. Test paper? thats bad luck for me haha on the fact that i hate test!

2. Strange happenings while i was at the mosque. Uztaz was shouting while reading his verses. haha. Unexpected large crowd.

3. My POSB card was 'eaten' by the machine itself b'cos i carelessly forgot to take my card back.

4. Fcuking long queue as i had to replace for a new card. But its actualli quite a norm to have long queues esp at banks and i waited for half hour before finally replacing a new one.

5. Fcuking heavy rain as i exited the bank. And it stops when i took a longer route to avoid myself from the rain.

6. I witnessed a fresh carcass of dead cat on my way home from work. This is tragic.

Strange feeling and i keep telling that to Bah. Now you believe me, Bah?

I must contact Mr Isaac Mendez.

2 more freaking papers to go.

I messed up alot so far.

However its getting on the right track, i hope.

I'm having a rough period of time at the moment. I'm not able to focus.

I'll try to salvage the situation.

And at this period of time, this is the type of songs you would want to listen to.

Thanks hakim.

its been one month.

2 papers down and im literally left with 3 papers. I cant wait to finish all papers which means my mind will finally be at ease on Saturday.

I have been on a rollercoaster ride of moodswings. Currently im feeling confused. One moment im happy, another moment im sad, dissapointed. ape nie. To add on, im still in a state of shock. The beach is said to be the best place to release all the muthafcuking emotions that are not meant and intended to be in the human head and i agreed to this strongly.

o que deve mim fazer. Im que não sentem o anymore. Ou talvez seu justo que im que sentem irritado. e im chocado para ouvir aquelas palavras.
seu sido um mês.

Eu falto realmente que alguém. Eu desejo ser com ele diário, cada único momento com ele. Eu amo-o. Eu devo apreciar o que eu tenho agora, mas ainda seu incompleto.
Seu amor proibido justo. e será sempre.

Im trying my very best to understand.

Maybe Im just being paranoid.

Maybe im wrong.

There's just too much in this head of mine that wants to explode.

Dun think too much.

time check : 0743PM

This is the last week of the term. Next week is already term test week followed by 2 weeks of holiday. But as i have already foresee, Im still going to be busy struggling with numerous projects to meet deadlines. Work. Personal Life.

Give me a break.

And Ive yet to start on any revision.

cmon buck up fucker.

2nd December 2007

:: i miss u ::

Happy Birthday Bitch. U go b.bebot !!

Im kinda exhausted mentally. Im complaining too much nowadays. Humans. School has been a pain lately. Im learning new things in life.

I missed the time spent..................................

The weekends are finally here and it will also pass by so quickly which is totally absurd. I demand longer weekends. Can i?

Im so happy. Its the first.

I didnt get enough sleep yesterday nite cos i only slept for barely 3 hours. Blame the assignments. fcuk!

However after today, i feel a lil bit of relive cos there aint any futher deadlines to dread for. I want my sleep, i want my leisure, i want my time, i want ____.

These pictures were taken early in the morning in lab. yes yes we are supposed to pay our fullest attention in class but who cares. cos we dun care!



starts with zero


on with one


now there's two


and finally three!


goodbye.

Im a lil bit late behind schedule. Because im busy at the moment doing a whole lot of assignments! However, i manage to squeeze in a lil bit of time to give a shout out to my beloved panda gerl.

Happy 18 birthdae bitch [like finally!! nj blom lagik! haha]





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NJ is going to die soon. how? i am ready for it. like totally. hisam also. better get ready. looking forward.

Finally I step onto Vivo. Way beyond words because the place is so big, bigger than i imagined. But an incident happened that changed my mood tremendously.

We went to have our dinner at BK. Already did out orders., got our food only to come back to get the fries. The place was so crowded so i had no choice but to squeeze through the crowd heading the counter for my fries.

Muthafucker : EH! Wads Ur Problem?
Fir : (turn around) ........ err... I still have my fries to collect.
Muthafucker : oh sorry sorry. u see the queue.....bla bla blah go to hell muthafucker. go to hell. bla bla bla bla bla........

I was lost for words. This is my first experience accounting to this. I just gave a unsatisfied stare at those 2 fcukers and they keep on apologising. Muthafuckers.

Seriously, I couldnt stop complaining from just now because im not happy. One can say politely if you're not happy about something. To add on, you should at least find out about the situation before carrying out any actions that will only put you to shame in the end. Stupid muthafcukers.

Eh fcuker! Why you like that?

After dinner, we carry on with our window shopping to find out that most shops already closing. And we finally make the decision to go home. We didnt even manage to cover 1/3 of vivo. I really like the entertainment values of vivo. For example the traffic man and the guards moving around with those electronic vehicle they move around with. Its a very refreshing concept to have it at malls like in Singapore. I will definitely go there again.

Tomorrow im working. Im tired.


N loves H. H Loves N. Who loves F? Its ____.

timecheck : 1028PM

It's finally over. Holding the post of stage manager was so tough probably due to my inexperience in that area. I wasnt really as effective as a leader like i used to be. Im sorry. I am dissapointed. However since its my first time, i can forgive myself as i learnt. wads this fir?

Its time to focus on my studies. There's no easy way out. unless you have money. bah!

timecheck : 0104AM

School is fine. No, school is not fine. Wouldnt it be great if school is so much easier. No projects, no exams, attend school is just to hang around, slack with your friends. How i wish.

Im currently having a tight schedule for this week and nothing much i can say about the weeks to come.

Projects suck.

timecheck : 1236AM

Tomorrow awaits another day. New stories, new conflicts, new problems, new hapiness and it never ends.

Im contented at the moment.

timecheck : 0220PM

I know its not right to think about it. Its not right to feel about it. Its not right to even talk about it. Lets stop here.

Timecheck : 1247AM

After a long hard day's work which starts as early as 10AM and finally ends at 6PM, its pretty obvious that one is totally exhausted. As i boarded the bus way home, i couldnt resist the temptation to close my eyes to catch a short nap. And I doze to Dreamland.

A tap on the shoulder and it abruptly ended my so-called nap. I was still in the dazed trying to get a hold of myself after the minor trauma but all i could think of is to get a glimpse of the person who tapped on my shoulder to wake me up upon reaching bedok interchange.

And there were none. Im not saying there wasnt anybody around me cos thats going to be another story, its just that i could find my 'angel'. Well whatever it is, thank you for the tap or i would have to face the embarrasement to get woken up by the bus driver himself.

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Finally i have already uploaded a whole junk of pictures which are long due. This is going to be a long picture post, guys.

Event : Hari Raya Outing 1
Date : Saturday, 4 Nov 2007

Went out for a hari raya outing with fellow dance peeps. Amin, Pheeza(dugong), Farida, Yana, Nj and Renni.







haha renni.




lepak-kia.

























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Event: Hari Raya Outing 2
Date : Sunday, 5 Nov 2007

A yearly Hari raya outing with Happy geng.






































dejavu
















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lastly its a tribute to our beloved gerlfren with many faces.






nites!