hey.

Happy belated 20th birthday to Siti Fairuz Bte Khalid. Let's be happy.

Home have been the alternative option for hotel because once I reached home, I eat, I sleep, the very next minute I'm out. Bonjour.

Met Nadia a couple of days ago and she told me she felt lonely. Yeah I guess you're the no 2.

I had a great workout on Saturday at Speed Institute, trying out the trial classes. But fuck, it will burn off $400 from my wallet. Someone give me 1k please.

And sometimes I do realise I'm abit weird.

And I think I 've got split personality.

Fuck.

Problems, problems and more problems.

I'm now in a middle of a crisis, will I be making the right decision? No regrets in the future? better not. Is it worth losing all those you've worked for months or maybe even years?

YAH FUCK!!

stress la.

Its clearly enough I didn't get the invite, it's ok. I miss hanging out with that other family, but unable to carry on any longer due to certain issues. Peace the fork out!

And is it worth losing friends due to uncompromising issues? Who's running my life, you or me? Obviously me.

Parents are killing me. I need my peace!

Today met up with Faridah, Ina and Amin in the evening. We had dinner at Bugis and then we walked all the way to the Esplanade and hangout at the Coffee Bean outlet. Christmas decorations were already set up at the whole stretch of City Hall and there was a gigantic mutha effing huge Christmas Tree at Raffles building.

Then on the way home, I met up with LADC mates, Poca Cass Edwin WeiWei Adeline NG, to catch midnight movie at Tampines mall. We watch 'Tropical Thunder' and hell yeah it was a great movie. I literally laughed my ass off throughout the whole thing. Jack Black was fucking hilarious and Tom Cruise donned a fat suit to play a character way beyond the expectations. I recommend you guys to watch this but prepare for gory scenes as well as extreme vulgarities! hah.

Its time to sleep. Bye.

6 months gone, I'm done with the pills. I've sent back the relevant documents and I'll just have to wait again. I've already wasted alot of precious minutes. I'll pray for the best of it.


I hold back alot. damnit.


Breath you out
Breath you in
You keep coming back to tell me
you’re the one who could have been
and my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past
Hold on to myself and don’t look back

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker every day
Watch me now and I’ll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you
Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie I’ve told a thousand times

And part of me still believes
When you ay you’re gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye
Forever

The start of the new month, November. Fuck, one more month till the new year. I need to be more organize lah. I'm freaking untidy, my stuffs are all over the place, my room is worst a mess. I'm resorting notebooks to save the situation and clearing off old clothes.

So when you clear off old stocks, you obviously need new stocks, yeah. A couple of things I need to get. Long list, loooooooong list means more money.

I just sent my phone for servicing earlier in the day. Frustrated as I've just bought the phone for less than 6 months. Now I'm using a classic phone, fucking classic nokia gadget.

Come to think about it, I'm not free on December 6. It's Lionel and Alicia's big event.

I am freaking tired.

Left shoulder injury possibly a muscle pull.

breakout session; which i fucking hate

and i'm still waiting....